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Monday, October 9th, 2006
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9:06 pm - nevermore you will toil
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Its interesting how much changes in my life from post to post. Since it has been several months since I posted last you would think a lot has happened. And you would be right. It's midterm week of my next to last semester at Berry College. I have had more fun and excitement in these 7 weeks than in any other semester so far. Mountain weekend just past, which is Berry's very sortof curious take on homecoming. I sang a rendition of Jump, Little Children's "Copper Kettle" with Shawn, Jonah and Jeff. The song is really funny, its mostly about making moonshine illegally and evading taxes. Everybody loved it, a huge hit. Jump is one of my new favorite bands, by the way. I've seen Nickel Creek twice this semester. I went backpacking with Shawn and his parents. Stayed up late lots of nights playing guitar with Shawn and Jonah. Been to Tammi's for riding and the nurturing of my soul. Made lots of new friends. Worried less about life after graduation. Shared tim tam slams with everyone I know. Swam in Little River, and the Chatuga River. I'm going camping in Florida this weekend. I've totally recovered from the surgery and get my braces off in exactly 2 weeks! That's not all of course, but that's my life, the condensed version. I hope all is well with you.
current mood:  content
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| Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
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2:03 am - summer times
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Umm I'm home, here's a summer recap
1. I went to New Zealand
2. I hanged out with Ginger
3. I watched Beth get married
4. I had jaw surgery
5. I cooked some foods
yep..that about does it
current mood:  sleepy
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| Friday, January 20th, 2006
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6:24 pm - TGIF
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it's friday night, i'm sitting in my room wearing the pants ginger bought me in Thailand. they are so comfy, they are one peice of cloth that tie around you all funny like a diaper but look really cool. Laundry's in the dryer, i think i'll go take a shower. Matt and i can't hang out till late cause he's busy with baseball. :-( Ginger is coming to Berry tomorrow!! She's never been able to visit me before on account of her going to school on the west coast, but she's home til February and is comin' to see me! I don't know what we'll do, its supposed to rain, but I'm sure it will be fun.
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| Monday, January 9th, 2006
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2:59 pm - back in class
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Over the holidays i had a conversation with a friend about life and love and faith and science. I told him that i don't really care how the world began, cells confuse me, and that we as humans are more than a series of chemical reactions. "Why are you studying biology?!" he exclaimed. a fair question, and nobody had really asked me like that before, yet i knew the answer immediately. It's where i see God. In proteins, in genes, in cells, in organs, in critters. Biology goes on, critters do their thing with or without us watching, and they are so very intricate and perfectly designed to fit in their little niches and all i can do is stare in awe at the work of God's amazing creativity.
he also admitted to not having enough experience or knowledge to know that God is real. I think that happens to most Christians at one point or another, we all doubt sometimes. I was holding a red jacket at the time. He asked me if i knew God was real as much as I knew that the jacket was red. I told him no, not all of the time. But sometimes, for just an instant, I feel like i know God is real just as the jacket is red, in a tangible, die-for realness. But that is all i need, just those few instances, and the rest of the time my soul searches desperately for that realness. Its those few moments that keep me going, like the word says, better is one day in the courts of heaven than a thousand elsewhere. I think we try to hard to find "evidence" of God in the way we look for evidence that a person was in a room, or an animal left tracks in the forest. Knowledge of God is not supposed to be just like any other knowledge. Experiencing Him is not like experiencing anything else.
We also talked about truth. He asked if truth was more important than anything else. Truth is just a word. I don't think we can fully comprehend all the "truth" about God. I think that's why God remains so mysterious. I can just imagine Him saying, "Truth, haha, you can't handle my truth." And i think that is amazing. i'm totally ok with my brain being puny and mush and unable to handle the Truth, but i'm still going to search for it. I am prepared to search and not ever fully "know". do you know what I mean?
current mood:  excited
current music: jamie cullum catching tales
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| Monday, December 12th, 2005
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11:12 am - there's no place like home
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so i'm home for the holidays. finals were last week and here i am at home alone, lovin' every minute. that's the part i miss the most when i'm away, time when i can be totally alone, with the exception of my precious Misty-dawg. but she never bothers me. I'm going to try and get a part time job so i can make some moneys, but nobody wants to hire me. i got no experience, and i'll only be here for the next what 4 weeks. hmmm. any suggestions anyone?
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| Sunday, October 30th, 2005
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1:56 pm - uhhh hi?
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holy cow, its been a ridiculously long time since i wrote in here. life is good. i came home this weekend and went to samford's homecoming with my mom since she's an alum and all. i met a bunch of former and current sorority girls. it was almost too much for me. i belong at berry. does anybody still read this?
current mood:  anxious
current music: some hippie song
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| Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
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4:48 pm - after rockin GCRL's face off...
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welllll i'm back at the homestead now, pretty much doing nothing all of the time. yepyepeyep. I absolutely love the time off and to myself. Christina came this weekend and we went to Berry to see some friends including Matt, but other than that I've been doing pretty much absolutely nothing. Sweet nectar of life! I'm supposed to work for Tammi the last week of july but not much else is planned really.
current mood:  lazy
current music: Sufjan Stevens
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| Monday, June 13th, 2005
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12:26 am - GCRL
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Well, i've been here at the gulf coast research lab for about 2 weeks now, so i'm halfway done. and i have loved just about every minute of it. we've been to biloxi and seen huge 100+ pound fish come in and to the barrier island of the coast, navarre beach for swimming and frolicking in the sands, and tomorrow we're going to dauphin island and the week after next we're going to new orleans. that's 3 states in 4 states in 4 weeks! and the best part is that i've seen all kinds of GOMEX (gulf of mexico) flora and fauna. we've seen lots and lots of fishes (you use the word "fishes" when referring to more than one species) and shrimp and sharks and stingrays and dolphins and crabs and snails and squid and sargassum and birds. i'm a nerd, a fishy nerd and i'm proud. here's a picture of a flippin sweet dolphin who just hung out with us for awhile and gave us a bit of a show next to the boat...
i'm in my element.
current mood: content
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| Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
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11:23 pm - deh popo
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Ginger sent me these in the mail. i cracked up and thought i'd share the joy...
current mood:  crazy
current music: appalacian journey -slumber my darling-
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| Monday, May 16th, 2005
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11:28 pm
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and so i'm back, from outer space...i mean Lake Tahoe...and it was wonderful. tonight i cooked one of the lake trout i caught, Petey. He came all the way over to Bham on the plane, frozen solid in my carry-on bag. Petey was a frickin big trout, like 2 feet long. oh and Petey was a girl, but that's beside the point. We had such a good time! We got to build a snowman and saw snow on the beach and went snowboarding and skiing (as you can see in the picture). we had some awesome shopping time too, i bought some new snowboard boots! Sweet nectar of life, i'm hardcore now! Despite my "child of the winter" tendencies however, i was still glad to get home to the south, nothing like sitting in a plane with broken air conditioning on a runway in Houston, Texas to give me my home,sweet-its-freakin-hot-here-home welcome. In church Sunday i fanned myself the whole time, and complained about the heat and everyone just stared at me like i was crazy.
wanna know a secret? i am crazy.
 note the pulled up hair, it was in the 50's so quite warm that day. you can see the lake between the mountains behind the lift...righteous!
current mood: Californian
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| Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
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12:12 pm - Lake Tahoe
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| Thursday, May 5th, 2005
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4:30 pm
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well i've been home for about a week now, ok i came home sunday and me and dad went fishing on monday night and i didn't get home til wednesday so i haven't been home that long. but i'm leaving tomorrow for a most excellent adventure that will first take me to Houston, to stay with Christina for the night and then me and her whole family and her sister's boyfriend are jetting off to freakin' LAKE TAHOE for a week, heck yes we are!! I'm sooo excited, i can't believe i'm getting on a plane tomorrow. Stina is going to take me out to lunch in Chinatown at a REAL chinese restaurant, idn' that awesome? we're gonna go skiing one day and deep-lake fishing and horseback riding and hiking, i'm so excited. and her whole family drinks hot tea all the time since her dad is from england so that's incredible, yeah. ok i'm going to go calm down now...
in other news, its weird not being at school. i miss christina. i miss matt. however i relish my solitude and i've really needed some quiet time to spend inwardly. nothing replaces Rachel-time and it's nice to be able to relax.
current mood: content
current music: silence
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| Sunday, April 24th, 2005
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12:54 am - dizzy me
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today me and matt and christina were driving to go eat lunch. matt was driving and i was riding shotgun with stina in the back, i don't reckon that really matters but at least what happened next didn't cause us to have a wreck. we stopped at a red light and i was telling some story about something and out of nowhere i get hit with vertigo. i felt like the car was tipping over, it kina makes me feel dizzy to write this. so we make it to the restaurant and i feel a little bit better, so i kinda flop down at a table and lay my head down while stina and matt orderd but it comes back and i felt dizzy if i turned my head from side to side and whatnot. i thought it was because i was hungry or something cause i had not eaten breakfast at all. but when the food got there i couldnt eat it. it was awful, i just sat there a total wreck, shakin like a leaf. i felt like food would make me sicker. i was terrified, i guess just at the fact that i didn't know what was wrong. so they hurried thru their meals and drove me back so i could lay down. matt came in after he parked the car and held my hand at all the appropriate times, he's wonderful like that. he was supposed to go somewhere but stayed with me instead, and hung out with me all day while i layed around and felt poopy. we watched a movie or too and talked about how we should really be studying for the genetics final on tuesday. we walked my bosses dog too and sat in the grass in front of the student center and listened to this rock-indian fusion band. i got free laundry for walking the dog. saweeet! i reckon i'll start studying tomorrow.
current mood:  mellow
current music: dave barnes
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| Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
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11:33 pm - i think there's something in the water...
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love was kept from me like a secret,
i swore that i was through,
until you.
-dave barnes-
current mood:  loved
current music: dave barnes -until you-
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| Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
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2:27 pm
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dude, it been a long time since i updated. it hints at the state of my being these days: there's just not enough Rachel to go around. let's see...spring break back in mid march was fun, i went snowboarding with some buddies in west viriginia for a few days and then went home for the rest of the time. the rest of the weeks kinda flow together after that, not that nothing was fun, but it was all equally fun. 29 days left of school! yep that's right kids, the last day of classes is april 21 i think and then exams the following week. heck yeah! having no vacation time whatsoever besides christmas and thanksgiving pays off when you get a 4 month long summer! I'm going home this weekend and me and stina are going to see marc broussard in concert at workplay and then the next week iron and wine is playing in atlanta which i might go too. i would really like to buy some snails though, you know like freshwater snails? i want two or three to keep as pets but we'll see how that goes. matt says i can either go to iron and wine or buy some snails and a place to keep them cause the $$ would be about the same. he's helping me stay disciplined so i can save my money for this summer class i'm taking at the gulf coast research station. the 'rents are making me pay half, so i need to save up like $2000 so i can take both the class and go to Alaska in July. i need to fing a summer job.
today i had chapel and lunch with the praise band at panera. yum. michael and shannon are graduating soon, and i realized today how much i'm going to miss them.
current mood: full
current music: switchfoot
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| Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
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4:20 pm - someday spring break will come
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two more days til spring break! my plans consist of a couple of days of sweet snowboarding action in west virginia on monday and tuesday and then some much needed home time for the rest of the week. i miss the family, i really do. and i miss having time to myself.
no tests this week, a true blessing. been hanging out with some new people lately which has proved to be most refreshing. these new guys are all about delving into spiritual conversations and discussing life. life is not all about music and concerts and movies, even though some might wish it were.
here's a picture from the student coffeehouse i hosted with a friend a few weeks ago. that's my mom's shoulder in the left corner. i'm really glad she was able to come, she's never really heard me perform before. enjoy.
current mood: calm
current music: nick drake -fly-
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| Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
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4:15 pm
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seems like every time i've been in the mood to update, livejournal wasn't...meaning the site was like "YOU SHALL NOT PASS!" when i'd click update. busy as all get out recently. went to the Ham on saturday to see a concert at workplay. it was totally sold out and we totally got in! it was this irish pub band called gaelic storm. they had freakin guiness holders on the microphones! it was incredible. guiness cans are really big too, and they each went thru a couple. it got kinda rowdy by the end. but the show was fantastic. we then stopped by the fabulous Stephen and Preston's apartment so to see some buddies. that was an adventure in itself. lots of miscommunication between me and stephen prior. "what? you aren't staying the night? i meant we should have dinner like at 9:30." -stephen. me "i meant eat dinner around 5:30 because the concert is at 7:30 and we're going back after..." Didn't get back to berry til 4 am. we had to be back for chapel the next morning. (mark and i are in the praise band.) the night before i had also gone to bed at 4 am, what with late night walmart runs for chocolate chip cookie dough. so sunday i passed out in the bed for a much needed four hour kicker after my meager 10 hours of sleep weekend. i'm used to my beauty rest. looks like this weekend is going to be much the same. moe. concert on friday, once again its totally sold out and we're totally going to try and get in. its a general admission show so all we need is 3 tickets off the street. mark and me and spanks are going. so we'll prolly get back at like 2 or later. saturday night i'm sitting duty til 1 am so movies all night. chapel again on sunday.
current mood: tired
current music: jamie cullum
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| Monday, February 14th, 2005
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2:14 pm - february 14th
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| Friday, February 4th, 2005
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11:54 am - i have a peter pan complex
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i went on a retreat with the praise band this past weekend. it was just the four of us and we went to our friend's place on lake martin. it rained the whole time and my car got stuck in the mud a couple of times. but because we were stuck inside we talked about many things. good things, bad things, spiritual things...needless to say we know each other a lot better now. one of the things we discussed over dinner was our top 5 fears. i had never really ranked my fears before, and when i thought about it i realized that there are not many things that i'm truly afraid of. there are certainly some frightening situations i wouldn't want to be in but to label it as a fear would mean that is something i worry about or dread wouldn't it?
i have a peter pan complex. i'm afraid of growing old. i'm afraid of waking up one morning to find that i have no desire to do the things i once did or once wished i could do. mark says that that is silly because when you're old you won't want to do "young" things and you'll be ok with that. he's excited about being old one day. but i don't think i will. i think i'll be sad. so i guess i'm scared of future regrets as well, but i think that falls under growing old. shannon says that i'm not scared to be old, but that i'm scared of growing old alone...and she's right. no more about that here though.
i'm scared that my brother and my dad won't ever give their lives to Christ. i think that speaks for itself.
i'm terrified of living without Christ, terrified that one day i'll grow so complacent in my faith that i will forget who He is and all that He has taught me. you know what its like to feel out of touch with God? well it sucks, its horrible, its miserable. to think that one day i might forget the difference between being in constant conversation with God and being silent scares me.
i don't know why i wrote all this. it was just on my mind.
current mood:  discontent
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| Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
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2:02 pm - Happy Groundhog Day
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i haven't written in awhile, i guess cause there's not much to say really. its rainy and cold today. i reckon pucksofoni bill or whatever that varmit's name is didn't see his shadow today, at least not in west georgia. that's a strange word, groundhog. cause the little guys are kinda cuddly and furry and never meant to insult anybody but the word implies some sort of dirt dwelling swine. i mean a hog is no cute little Babe hearding sheep around and saving people. hogs are some serious farm critters. we're talking like the size of small cars, you can smell them from a mile away,and tasty. poor little groundhogs.
oh yeah so its really cold and windy so the rain blows sideways under the best efforts of my trusty umbrella. i'm going home this weekend, a first in many moons and i'm gonna get to see my old friends so i'm excited about that.
current mood:  creative
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